Shalalala, update?

So, people who aren't reading this, I haven't blogged much.
Frankly 'cause everything has been a blur.
I'm still not even sure of what's really going on in my life.
But this is what has happened....

I decided to hit up a guy that I haven't spoken to in two years.
We'll call him MisterGuy, lmfao.
He was tryna game me up back then, and I wasn't really giving him the time of day.
Which I feel bad for, cause now that I started talking to him, he's really a good guy.
Or for the most part....
SEEEEE, it's like this.
We're currently talking, but he dosen't know what he wants.
And I can't say that I truly do either, because I did kiss someone else recently that was not MisterGuy.
But I can say that is out of my system.
MisterGuy on the other hand, has kissed like 3 girls, chilled with a girl when he was mad at me, blah blah blah.
He was totally honest about all of it, but that dosen't necessarily clean the slate.
And he blabbed our business to someone that I do not like, who then thought it was his perogative to tell MisterGuy past business that wasn't necessary.
Which then turned into this huge altercation and MisterGuy and other guy were about to fight.
-____-

Which they didnt, but still.
So MisterGuy was mad at me, cause I started it.
Pshh, whatever.
Then things were awkward and I pretty much thought we were done.

Then blast from the past comes along, asking to "chill"
But c'mon people, we all know what 'do you want to chill?' means.
He just wants a quick lay, as he is known for this.
But the sad part is, I actually debated if I should go "chill" with him or not, because MisterGuy was doing his bizz and it didn't matter.
And I used to be totally in love with blast from the past, pfft.
Him coming back to me just messed with my head like it always does.
It's always been like that.
We talk, we argue, we ignore each other, and just as soon as I think I'm on my feet and over him, he weasels his way back in my life.

Then the day before I might "chill" with blast from the past, MisterGuy comes along.
Saying he's sorry for being overdramatic and that he misses me.
And then next thing I know, I'm talking to him on the phone and it's like nothing ever happened.
AND IM BACK TO MY FUCKING ULTIMATUMS.

Nevertheless, I decided not to call blast from the past.
Because I truly know that all he wanted was some pussy.
And I thought of this quote,
"It is your choices that show what you truly are, far more than your abilities."
And if I make choices like that, what am I saying about myself?

So I'm just gonna try and stick it out with MisterGuy.

Nothing wrong with a little risk is there?